The tears start rolling........... (happy & sad)

Hey girlies,

Maria how could you not tell me about your job when I just talked to you on the phone??!! That is SO amazing and extremely exciting. Your job actually reminds me a lot of what I am doing this summer. I will have to make another post to tell you girls all of the details. I think I made the right decision taking it. I want the work I do in my life to mean something, and Maria I think your job will be so rewarding. I am so happy that part of your life has fallen into place as well (the other part being Kev lol). I am also very sorry to hear the news about your grandpa. I agree that you should encourage your mom to go be with him right now. The rest you'll just have to take day by day. I will definitely put him in my prayers. I started to cry after I read yours and Amy's posts.

I cry happy tears for all of the wonderful things happening in all of your lives, and I cry because I miss you girls so much. I'd been doing so well up until today.. this morning at work we were supposed to say how we were feeling about things, and I said that I was glad I had this job to focus positive energy on because all of you girls moved out and it's a really emotional time in my life. As I was telling the group that my roommates moved out I started CRYING. AT WORK. These poor people have known me for three days. Everyone was actually very supportive, but I was still embarrassed of course. I told them that I was the crier of the house, although that hasn't been that true lately. I think I have been feeling numb lately because I've been trying to avoid my true feelings. Until I came to college I had only known life as an only child. I had friends, but my close friends normally changed every year. This is why if you have ever heard me talk to Amy about people from home I have probably said, "oh I used to be really good friends with them." I think until I met Brad and his friends all of those friendships were so shallow. At that time I probably didn't have the capacity to understand true friendship, and maybe that also stems back to being an only child, I'm not sure. Anyways, the point is that Brad led me to Brie who led me to Amy who led me to all of you. Funny how things happen.

As I was talking to my new colleagues today I realized that you girls really have been like family to me. You're all the siblings I've never had. I came home yesterday and felt like an empty nester. It was the most depressing feeling ever. Finally I have found true friendships. I am so happy that some of you have already taken the opportunity to use this blog. I know that it will be difficult to talk to each other all the time so I think this is a great way for us to keep in touch better. I want to keep you all in my lives forever if possible. You have all brought out different parts of my personality and have helped me grow as a person, and have opened my eyes to so many new things. You have challenged my thinking, made me laugh and maybe even made me cry. Right now I am finally bawling like I expected myself to do days, if not weeks ago. I love you all so much and I am so looking forward to the happy occasion of Maria's upcoming wedding. For those of you that are able I definitely think we should get together in August to finish clearing out/cleaning up the house and we can finally have a true sleepover.

XOXOXO,
Laur