Kev starts Monday and is going to stay with Megg and Eamon who live about an hour outside of Syracuse until we can get a place. I'm going to stay at Vanderheyden until the end of the month. I'm sad to leave to be honest. I had a lot of interesting experiences there definitely, but the kids and staff were kind of like my dysfunctional family when I worked residential. And my clinical co-workers all had good heads on their shoulders and were a lot of fun to work with.
I think I'm usually pretty good with change, I like to envision it more as an adventure than a loss. But to be honest, I feel like a Mom or big sister to a lot of my kids (I know, totally inappropriate attachment and also painfully cliché ). I guess I know when I am around I can keep them safe, for the most part. Even now in clinical I tend to step into crisis, and try to help maintain some order to their chaotic feelings. Something I have learned about myself that I am proud of is I will more often than not step in and stop something to keep a kid safe when other people will ignore it and hope the behavior stops. I know I contributed to a lot of those awful hours when I was the ROC because I followed through with all the kids who were in crisis, and that takes a long time. And you guys know that I am not really too thorough with much in my life so I think that is something to be proud of.
Anyway, sorry, I seem to be thinking out loud about all of this. No one really wants to talk about me leaving Vanderheyden, everyone's just happy for me and wants to leave it at that. My family always seems to want to avoid me mentioning work, mostly because I think they are unsure of what to say, it is such a strange situation most of the time I don't blame them. But, long story short I guess, it's bitter sweet. But I am very excited for Kev and proud of him, he finally gets to wear a suit all the time.
Lauren your wedding was a total blast and you were hands down THE most beautiful bride I have ever seen and I say that with all the sincerity I have. Congratulations again and I wish you many years of happiness and really hope that I will experience some of those happy times with you over our long friendship.
Love you all!
Maria R.
Maria - I think that everything happens for a reason. You've learned so much about life and yourself through thsi job, and the next thing that comes along will be easier because of this. Can't wait to see what that might be!
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